errr wads new year resolution ah? issit ur goals or wad... i really dunno lehx... crap someone muz tell me =X ya... Firstly, i wanna be myself... i know i am not being myself... it has became so natural that i forgot who i really am... some people may call this a defensive action cuz the REAL me... is very serious... very unfun... very nice to everyone... very anti social... i really dunno wad to do... some times i really feel like breaking down... but i turned to God... i am trying to look around and find out wad's His answer for my prayers... haix... Secondly, i wanna get good results for O lvls(who dun) or go NS after sec 4 then be killer whale/dolphin trainer after that.... maybe thats why the REAL me cant fit into the grp... the area of passion... is totally different... Thirdly, i am going to thick skinned and go for choir ministry audition =x... i rmb there was once... i used to think for everything i do... "what for?" i feel that there is no purpose in doing anything... go online, wad for? go out, wad for? k la... i cried a fair few times even though im a guy =X but i am quite emotional and brittle =X cuz im searching for the real me... sometimes i may look happy on the outside... but the deepest of me... is suffering... praise the Lord for saving me from depression, from backsliding... but i just wanna ask one more simple thing... pls bring the REAL me back... pls... haix... Happy new year all!!!
